My Crime

My crime was not that I wore wrong clothes

My crime was not that I was out till late

My crime was not that I wanted to live my life with my friends

My crime was not that my parents never discriminate in girl and boy

My crime was not that I had big dreams

My  crime was not that I wanted to be a boy for my family to support

My crime was not that I was from small town so I had to come down in metro city

My crime was not that I spread my wings to fly

My crime was That I was a Girl

And that I born in the country where women is being worshipped in books and preaches

Where Culture and morality are the words to boast in society to stop girls to go ahead

Where being women is the biggest Crime…

Thank you my Great Indian Culture and country to give me all my answers..!!!!

 Pain of every girl who has ever been eve teased, molested, sexually abused or raped.... :(

SAMMAAN

Mene khidki se jhaank kar dekha…  toh sehmi si roshni thi aaj,

Socha kis tam me kho gaya yeh ujala…

Ja ker poocha ki aaj yeh andhtam sa din kyu he

Pata chala aaj  samman ne apni hasti kho di

Samman kis ka?

Ek janni ka..ek jeevan ka.. ek janmdatri ka !!!!

Bola esa toh pehle bhi hua tha, yeh toh roz hota he

Roz toh ujala apni aanch nhi khota he

Toh uttar mila aaj dhairya ne bhi apni hasti kho di he

Dhairya kis ka?

Ek maa ka, ek pita ka ek bhai ka ek samaaj ka

Fir ek sawaal ubhar ke aaya

Kab tak rahega yeh drishya…?

Uttar nahi tha….

Shayad he bhi nahi..

Hum aadi he har paristithi ke

Darr he ki yeh sehmi si roshni huamare jeevan ka hissa na ban jaye..

Aur apmaan ki kahaani bas ek kissa na ban jaye L

When "Love You" becomes "Loved You"

It is a moment when I was fiddling with my thoughts, on my fingers was counting the sad and happy days of life not only mine but the people around me who I know closely. Then, won’t say suddenly’,  but with a deep, long and expanded way I tried to bunch up the episodes of combat of my feelings. A strong and massive feeling which actually has a delicate coverlet.That is ” Love” .

             As much I understood this feeling although it’s something ruled by our heart but somewhere it is not headed by heart. We fall in love by heart but sooner we bogged down with numerous setbacking feelings. Argument, anger, jealous, distrust, disrespect, disagreement, over expectation, confusion, discontent and pressure. All these feelings are murderer of our real feeling.

          I won’t say these fears are unjust. They are inevitable. But what inference i brought out could be suggestive to  torn out these negative imprint.

     If once in a love you have got what you never expected then you shouldn’t stick to those painful memories.  You should realize why do we fall in love and what we should get after getting in this astounding feeling?

   Being in love is a state of life when your take towards life become 200%  positive, where you have an assurance that no matter what situations can be, you will get pass through every test of life, when you wake up with a smile on your face and your day end up with that smile too. When you get tiny surprises whole day, when entire day u get more and more assure that he/she is the one who can be part of my life. When you become more competent and give your best short in everything what you do. You can’t be winner all the time but definitely you won’t be a quitter. You have someone to tell about your, from small to big, successes and failures. When your single tear can tear her/his heart and your smile can widen his/her happiness. That is the state when you realize that he/she can make you stay.

          This realization doesn’t come from the books you read or from the stories of couples or movies you watch. This realization comes when someone makes you realize to understand Love.

          We hear lot of stories, examples and advices about love but it is the exam you will get pass when you actually take this exam.

      

Keep Loving ……. Deep Loving ……..<3 :)

                  

Tumne Jeena seekh liya hai

Is Duniya Ki Zubaan Kitni Badal Chuki Hai,
Har Ek Zubaan Kuch Ek Lafzo Per Hi Ruki Hai,

Khud Ke Khushiyo Ke Manzar Se Jyada,
Beghano Ke Zakhmo Se Ristaa Khoon Achcha Lagta Hai,

Jo Paas Hai Woh Nahi,
Kuch Aur Hi Pane Ko Mann Karta Hai,

Khwaabon Ki Imaarato Ki Sabse Upari Manzil Hi,
Aashiyana Sa Lagta Hai,

Dost Toh Nahi Ban na,
Per Usse Ughne Wali Fasal Kaatna Achcha Lagta Hai,

Faayde- Nuksaan Ke Taraazoo Badi Tezi Se Bikne Lage Hai Aajkal,
Kyonki Har Ek Insaan Vyaapaari Jo Ban Ne Laga Hai,

Ek Se Dusra, Dusrey Sey Teesra Aur Fir Ese Hi,
Sabke Armaano Ko Rondhtey Hue,

Apni Raaho Ki Dehleez Per Mukaam Banana
Achcha Lagney Laga Hey,

Aaj Ki Is Duniy Ke Belagaam Badlawo Ke Beech,
Sambhal Kar Chalte Hue,

Humne Khud Ko Hi Thagna Seekh Liya Hai,

Shayad Isliye Log Kehne Lagey Hai Sur,

"Tumne Jeena Seekh Liya Hai

  Tumne Jeena Seekh Liya Hai " ....................

I was stuck in clouds of past....

Life... complicated word because we all have our problems,circumstances, perspective and an eyesight to look at it. I wonder that every second person i meet has his/her undefined problems and that is making their life so hard to live.
      I also do have some problems but i think there is a life beyond this stress. We have 50 % problems and we make it as 100% by thinking about these problems. We hardly spend our time to think about solutions and possibilities if we do, then we will see that what was looking impossible, was so easy to get over.
         Sometimes we get so negative towards life but there are many people in our lives who make us realize our worth that how special we are for them.We live for those problems and people who do not care about us and ignore those who deeply love us. Just find the reason to be happy and be happy then you will realize your worth and moreover worth of those numerous smiles which come after seeing you happy.
           Never stress and pessimistic. Problems will come and this make life unpredictable, all we get to know that how to find a way to come out from this maze. Just believe in you and go out to chase your dreams. Past leaves trails behind, all u need to do that free yourself from those lattice and feel the beauty of life.

When it bleeds, i just keep looking at it

Heart a muscular part with arteries and veins. It purifies deoxygenated blood into pure blood so it can reach out to every part of body. When it pains there are many reasons behind that be it hypertension,cardiac problem and orthopnea. Some people have this kind of health problems. 
                " Its so easy to describe the pain of this body part, but why everyone says their heart disfunction that it gets hurt,break and cry."
        Actually in life there are some severe pains can not describe by anyone. We all are broken heart. At times feel that it will get burst and will tell us what does it want. Remedies are not there but reason is very common. Love.............
           I remember it danced when it felt love first time. How can i forget that bliss when roses got turn more red, when hot winds became breeze, when i closed my eyes i saw his face and when opened again saw him, i rubbed my eyes like a baby and nobody was there,i smiled foolishly on me.
        When my mornings were so bright that i had that courage to fight against all odds and obstacles of my life. I just used to call him and message to say three magical words. When all love songs became my favorite.
          And one day my heart cried when he was going away from me. I waved and said dont go please but he did not stop. I thought to jumped down. I was looking at window and felt that all clouds get clear and scorching sun started slitting my heart. I could not believe it that my roses turned wilt. My love songs started pricking my heart till the depth. When it bleeds i can not stop it just look at it helplessly.
        My tears were salty and they were burning my wounds. I slept at night thought to dreaming that my morning would be the same as before, thought it was a nightmare but it was not......
          I woke up with the same pain.Looking at my cellphone that is there anything which can be able to lessen my pain but pain became more severe....
                                         We all have gone through with this pain and still finding is there any way to cure it. I thought to being loved but being ignored and abandoned is the gift i have got from life........
        I was courageous and now finding ways to escape from life..... Love..four words which gave meaning to my life, turned my thinking and gave me new direction and now when its not there where would i go to find the meaning of my life....
      May be Love would have been a chapter of syllabus so we would have got the answers of this pain. How to cure it. Why it is not as simple as it is in medical language.... its bleeding and all i can do is just looking at it......waiting for him....i hope one day he can stop it from crying out loud
         Letter from a broken heart Girl...... </3

PAPA

http://youtu.be/GsXDiIeqR2s

Suna he woh duniya bahut khoobsurat he,

wahan rang birange phool hare bhare khet neel warn aakash he,

har waqt thandi bayaar behti he,

kal-2 jharno ke sur sudoor tak sunayi dete he,

PAPA mene yeh bhi suna he ki waha ki raah bahut nirmal hai,

waha sirf prem basta he,chal kapat avgun dosh kuch nahi hota..

kuch Virle hi pahunch pate he waha jahan aap gaye ho akele...

Aapne toh sari duniya hath pakad ke dikhane ka wada kiya tha na

fir yahan bhi sath le chalte,

aap ungli pakadte meri aur samjhate ki beta yeh jo jharne he aviral behte he,

yeh nadiya rukti nahi he,yeh phool apna rang kabhi nahi khote!!

Nahi khote yeh phool apna rang kabhi..

Itni badi berang duniya dikhayi aur woh adbhut drishya dekhne akele kyun chale gaye.

Suna he waha apno ke sath SWARG jesa lagta he,arrey haan woh Swarg hi toh he!!!!

Mein choot gayi akeli PAPA piche..

sath le lo..

Yeh duniya ungli pakad ke dikhayi toh woh kyun nahi,

kya mera sath itna bura tha jo beech majhdhaar me chod gaye,

mene koi galti ki jo uski saza de rahe ho,

saza dete toh nahi aap kabhi fir is bar kyun..

Papa bahut door chale gaye per fir bhi mere pas ho.

Kehte he bachcho ki aankho me pita ki umeede janam leti he,palti he ,badhti he,

per aansuo me bheeg kar roshni kamjor si hone lagi he,

dabdabayi aankho me kin sapno ko sambhalu me...

Puri koshish se aapke sapno ko ked karne ki koshish karti hu,

 per chalak ke gaal per beh nikalte he..

fir kamzor ho jati hu...

bahut mushkil he...

ab sapney aapke hi reh gaye he bas yahan mujhe pura karna he,

 mera sapna toh aapke saamne apne sapno ko jeena tha..

mera sapna tut gaya per aapka nhi tutne dungi..

kyun log itna samjhate he ..

ya toh aap aa jao ya mujhe bula lo..

beech ka raasta mujhe samajh nahi aata..

Suna he wahan akele pad gaye honge aap....

ya humse bhi achche log mil gaye....??

aap khush raho bas itni hi khwahish bachi he meri zindagi me....

likhti rahegi aapki beti...

Sudha Ram Joshi..

I have dreamt Last Night !!!!!!

                                                                     DREAMS

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A  serene dawn is scattering its saffron spreads over the sea shore and I m walking along with the sea to find out where it has end ,I just woke up and something is making me restless and that restlessness has pulled me here. Now you all are wondering what has made me that much anxious which straightaway took me to that place?  There was a screenplay which has been played last night, I was the writer, I was in acting it and I was the audience, the entire command was on my hand and it was “A DREAM”.

                       Dream a word which we use to hear everyday, everywhere and even we all know the depth of this word then what is new I am going to write about it which already a self expounding to us. May be someone found it cliché someone found it something new but still for sake of explaining my definition of dream  I am trying to pen up.

                    Yeah let us come to that anxiety which actually made me restless last night, what if we use to see dreams but it makes a difference when we confront a dream in unconscious state which we want to live up in our real lives. I was walking through many experiences in my life which gave me that sense of understanding that what  a dream is all about.

                         It’s not a story we knit our own, it’s not a golden deer which we want to chase unconsciously n unknowingly, It is a reflection of ourselves. Simple na! no big words, no exaggeration, no literature language but easy to understand……but that not enough to describe a word which is widely used, widely lived and widely bring differences in one’s life.

             Dream is a hope, a wish, a desire, a motivation, an inspiration, a provoking thought, a future drawing, a sketch of our canvas, a drop which shed from the eyes, an obstinacy, a passion, a blaze, a breeze and so on now what is your pick in all of these. For me it’s a belonging which I always keep with me.......................................